I lie awake at night for you.

Sunday, March 30, 2008

YAY. THE AMAZING GRACE KOCK CHANGED THE BLOGSKIN! :p

finally it has some purple here and there(: hoho! omg i can't believe i slacked the day away. actually i can. hahaha. i played with my super duper cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeee neighbour's daughter. her name's celest i think. hahahaha. i blowed bubbles out of the gay bottle. and she ran around bursting it. i blow until breathless man D: but it was so funny. she keep triping then i had to catch her. luckily she didn't fall onto the ground. hahaha. oh yes. i was blowing bubbles, hence the blogskin. hahahaha.

darling's glad i wasn't playing with soft toys if not she'll die of gayness. cos i'll find a super gay blogskin with soft toys and change to it. hahaha. ohmy. i didn't do any homework. sheesh. i'm so gonna die D:

yesterday

the 3 macho guys and the 1 sexy lady! hahaha!

talent time/ arts fest!
i'm okay with the results, because i knew i did my best. i knew i gave it all i could. but i'm seriously quite disappointed in them. did they take this competition seriously? did they try their best to help when we were toiling away? i guess some of them didn't. they made so much noise i said "shhhhh" one million times. i know they didn't give their best, because we were so much louder during practise. and stage-fright is NOT an excuse. ohwells.

i was falling asleep at the gallery. haha. and i swear my menses were so annoying. sheesh lah. oh HONEY AND DARLING came to support us! we went to eat at kfc after that. our favourite TWO PIECE CHICKEN MEAL! HAHAHA! honey eats super fast lah! i was so amazed and amused. haha. then we went to the popular at the mrt. where i read all my childhood books. i would be so touched if someone buys me a whole collection of disney stories. hahaha.

then they left and i went to paragon to meet my aunt, my cousins and my DEAREST SISSY(: met them at ding tai feng. so i ate a little. hahaha. then my aunt bought me a new wallet and two new shirts! yay! she gave me money too(: yay i love her! hahaha. then shopped till 10+ then went home. crapped alot with with my sissy(: i love her to bits and pieces, no matter what happens(:

just polished my boots. they are super shiny now! hurray! i better keep them before my dad steps on them. hoho.

♥ They all lived happily ever after at 9:16 PM.

Had a drive,
Driven by your love.
But when you messed around,
I lost the drive I found.

It’s hard holding you,
Loving you, losing you.
Should I stay or should I go?

My heart is heavy,
Heavy like a rock.
But I am so amused,
You’re still in my thoughts.

♥ They all lived happily ever after at 3:51 AM.

I'll stop smiling everytime your name is mentioned.
I'll stop getting distracted by thinking of you.
I'll stop defending your actions and words.
I'll stop someday, somehow.

♥ They all lived happily ever after at 1:08 AM.

Friday, March 28, 2008

I've sacrificed my daily happiness just for your comfort. So are you happy now? Sometimes I really wonder...

Sheesh. How did things turn out to be so cold? I want it to be like last year again. When it was something only I knew. Some times, I really regret opening up.

♥ They all lived happily ever after at 8:53 PM.

Sunday, March 23, 2008

I'm just so bloody SICK AND TIRED of you. Can't believe you threatened to BURN and TEAR it. Last time, you threw it away. I picked it up from the dustbin. Guess you want to opt for something more permanent, huh. I will never forgive you if you go through with your threat.

Pushing my head around will not make me listen to your criticizing words. I'm already immune to it. You think I WANT to sleep late constantly, stay up all night doing my work, and fail my tests?! I'm trying my best to make it all work out somehow, but you keep on demoralising me. Can't you just be more supportive of me and my other responsibilities?

♥ They all lived happily ever after at 10:17 PM.

Friday, March 21, 2008

Hotmail is pissing me off! I can't even open the page. Bloody hell. Today happens to be the day that I need to receive and send emails): Aiyo!

Tuesday's Physics lesson was HAHA(: Actually only the last 5 minutes. I kept smiling to myself like one kuku nut. I realise that I've been smiling to myself quite alot these past few days :D Had store check after school then went for the Affirmation rehearsal. There's rehearsal on the 4th of April! :/ Aiyo, hopefully I can leave the rehearsal super early and fly back to school.

Wednesday was Live Range. Bloody hell la. Some unwanted people were there. :/ Distraction, only! Sheesh! Anyway, 5 marksmen! :D We cabbed back to school because it was already around 6+. Haha, Zura was slowww!

Yesterday! :D Grace Tang and Sharon crashed our date. Hence, it became a Mugger Club outing. I think our club name is SUPERLY not fitting! We are slackers, not muggers. Tsk. We wanted to watch Step Up 2, but the there were no seats): So we watched Slam instead. Hoho, I fell asleep during the movie. I think I was too tired. They wanted to throw popcorn at me! TSK! Haha, Grace and Sharon threw a paper ball at me when I fell asleep during Geog. Luckily it wasn't an eraser, or else I would have smacked you! Grace Tang left after the movie, and it was just the 3 of us! We went to get ice cream and the lady was scary! Everytime we said a flavour, she would take the testing spoon thingy and give us. HAHA(: Bought dark choc, they bought some dontknowwhat and we stood infront of a TV, watching Enchanted. Super kuku la! (:

Afiq: Both my Maths are like shit. So yup. And that wasn't my post la!
:D : I likeee! I'm eating it now. HAHA(: Surprising la! Thank you! (:

♥ They all lived happily ever after at 10:50 AM.

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO TMR! :D

yesterday was so nice and sweet! hahaha. next time we go blue-sky gazing! hahahaha. oh i just realised we were supposed to take photo with my phone's camera:\ heh. next time we really must bring pillow for our head and cushion for our butts! haha! if not they'll turn white again. hoho. i just realised that that place is quite exposed. like 2 ppl came up to me and said they saw us up there. hahaha. anyw, i hope you didn't cry that day(: you really made me worry can!D: it's fun lying there and slacking like noobody's business. haha!

i'm glad you told me why you were sad(: it made me feel needed, and in some way, important(: although it made me feel quite useless after that, cos i really didn't know what to say to comfort you or anything:\ heh.

i'm quite pissed now. after like i dunno how many reminders, still got ppl FORGOT this and that. i'm quite surprised and disappointed actually. but it's alright now. if it's not alright i'll murder someone. but if this happens the next time again, i. will. really. get. fucking. pissed. and you won't want to know what i'll do when that happens.

shit. i just realised there's another list to do. good job grace. you can say goodbye to your sleep. and homework.

GOODBYE SLEEP, GOODBYE HOMEWORK. i guess i won't be seeing you these few days. hoho.

♥ They all lived happily ever after at 10:48 PM.

Monday, March 17, 2008

this post is dedicated to my dearest sister.

hey sis,
it has been so long since i last saw you sleeping on your own bed.
it has been so long since i last ranted to you about school and all those annoying stuff.
it has been so long since i last cried in front of you, complaining how unfair life can be.
it has been so long since we last had those heart-to-heart talks that we used to have oh-so-often.
it has been so long since we last talked into the morning about everything and anything.
it has been so long since we last laughed together, watching our favourite variety show.
it has been so long since we last had meals together.
it has been so long since we last went shopping, spending every single cent on us and spotting hot guys together.
it has been so long since we last gossiped about everything and anything.
it has been so long since you last did my eyebrows for me.
it has been so long since you last ranted about everything to me.
it has been so long since you last had a meal together with the family.
it has been so long since you last spent your night at home.

i'm not enjoying myself at home alone, you know. i really really dread coming back home now that you are not here. i really hate it when i know they are pining their hopes on me. everytime i don't do well, i worry alot about how they feel or about how i'm disappointing them. seriuosly, i miss hearing your laughter at home. our home has became very quiet since you left. i know you prefer to stay at his house because there is no scoldings there and hence lesser stress in some ways. but at least come back more often? i really miss you alot);

please come back home.

love,
your dearest younger sister.

♥ They all lived happily ever after at 11:06 PM.

I just realised that I send an average of 40 messages per day. Best. That's why my bill bursts every month. Sheesh. I'm so proud of myself. I deleted almost all my sent messages. Hoho, and my sent messages shrunk to 785 messages from 2562 messages! :D

I just realised how super tired I am. I fell asleep during Physics. Much thanks to Grace Tang who nudged me and caused me to wake up. Hoho, you should see my Physics Lecture Notes now. Damn beautiful. It's full of scribbles because I'm barely conscious when I was taking down notes. And I fell asleep again when I was studying with darling, Sharon and Siao Tian. I still have my History essay to do! And A Maths. Ohmy, AMaths was damn lousy. I didn't even understand what the hell she was saying. Sheesh! ):

Haha, I did such an unglam thing today. Hoho, me and darling were like SQUATTING in the toilet. Then a random Sec 1 came in and gave us a ? stare. Hoho, gracetang stop making my hopes fly high, aye.

♥ They all lived happily ever after at 9:35 PM.

Saturday, March 15, 2008

It's mine. It's something private. Yet you had to go screw it up. See, this is what I hate about opening up to people. I guess I just picked the wrong person. Please go fly a bloody kite, thank you.

♥ They all lived happily ever after at 8:34 PM.

Friday, March 14, 2008

Who's the best? WARFACE! (: We did it, we did it! Champions! And I've got a nice medal to prove it. Haha, today was an extremely stressful yet funny day. Thanks to those who supported us, especially TRISHA! (:

Oh sheesh, I think I'm falling sick. I need to sleep, but I can't. Must prepare uniform, edit proposal and do homework. Okay, slowly Diana, slowly. Everything is coming all at one shot. I'm going to prove to YOU that I can do it. I'm not going to crack under pressure like you said I will. You just wait and see. I can do it!

Grace Tang: Hoho, I've got alot of stories also! Haha, I'm super happy about it :D

President!: Haha, I don't have motives. Huh, what motives? Tsktsk. Anyhow say only. Hoho, I miss you and MUGGERCLUB also(:

Trisha: Huh, what 711. Huh. Nothing happened what, RIGHT!

♥ They all lived happily ever after at 9:20 PM.

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Went to Bishan Library after parade yesterday with Trisha. I wanted to go Toa Payoh Library, but Trisha wanted to chance upon someone. Tsk. I struggled with my E Maths for 2 whole hours. I must finish all my homework today, MUST. I'll stay at the National Library and just finish up everything.

It's simply amazing how four syllables and one message can motivate a person so much.

My legs are aching now, but who cares. Running yesterday was :D I haven't been running much. 11 rounds were not enough, because I am constantly running after you.

:D : HAHA(: I was wondering, since when were the chocs suppose to change colour? And I'm not going on Friday): I really wanted to go la. Nvm, Monday(:

PRES(: : I miss the Club! Sorry, I couldn't join you and darling yesterday. Eh, if I need to buy donuts for the Club, then must go Toa Payoh again right. Oh, was this a hint or something? AHEM(:

Aqilah: Hoho, you can just go read my post aye. I thought you went somewhere for the holidays, that's why I didn't message you.

Yushu: Haiyo, will you be sad that I won't be taking your class anymore? Haha, you must be so super happy right.

Trisha: I'm going for the thingythingy. You are going also right?

♥ They all lived happily ever after at 10:59 AM.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

I'm back from Rompin! The trip was superly :D thanks to platoonmates and others. Hoho, we had quite alot of free time and we got to know each other more. 2 years of being platoonmates, but still, I got to know more about the 6 of yall. Tsk, I didn't know - was so scandalous!

The trip was filled with funny moments right from the start. When we were waiting outside HQ also, the nonsense just started spilling out. Some EXTREMELY BRILLIANT person didn't bring her toothbrush. It's wonderful that she lasted 3 days, 2 nights without brushing her teeth. Got so many other things happened, but got some which are AHEM private. xD

First day was the bus ride, and the superly long bumpy four-wheel drive to endau-rompin. Zura thought that there were porcupines and elephants at the road. Damn funny, la. We went to the NERC place which was super clean and nice. Hoho. Rafting to the Kampung was first. It was super short and we just kept going in rounds. Best. Walked up abit to the Kampung then they showed us some funnyfunny traps and the blowpipe thingy and walked back to NERC. Had some handicraft thingy which took me a long time for me to understand. OTOT when we just talked crap and more crap. The TCOs from CC and Evergreen entertained us quite abit throughout the whole trip. Hoho, they're quite funny(:

Second day! We took a boat ride to Kuala Jasin and trekked abit to the campsite. The route was filled with elephant shit. It was big and round and it was everywhere. Haha, some guy stepped on it, even though the shit was damn big and obvious. Placed our bags at the sleeping area, but then we had to bring one bag along for trekking, and we ended up using mine. We trekked for about 5 hours in the rainforest. And out of that 5 hours, we trekked in the rain for 4 hours. According to Nasuha, it was raining while we were trekking because it was a RAINforest. Damn lame la! Hoho. It was quite fun trekking in the rain but it was damn muddy everywhere, so everyone fell 1001 times. We were wearing House tee la! In the end, our shirts were brown, FBT trackpants were brown and my shoes looked like GOHSUYI's campcraft shoes. Haha. My bag was super beautiful at the end of the trek. Magically turned to brown. There were leeches everywhere in the rainforest. I didn't notice that I was bitten by leeches until the end of the trek. I found FOUR leeches INSDE my shirt. I have 6 leech bites! The most in the platoon. Zura was screaming about the leeches the most, but she got away without any bites. Tsk. I didn't even scream when I saw leeches, but I ended up with the most bites. Best. After trekking was OTOT, all the way. We crapped alot, played Truth or Truth! Found out alot of INTERESTING things. And Gowri from CC talked to us alot because she was the only girl from CC.

Throughout the whole trip, I wanted to smack alot of the guys. Tsk, some of them abit too much la. Some are okay, I guess. The bus ride back home, Ashwiyni, Zura and I were pissed off alot. Sheesh!

This has been a superly long post and NASUHA has all the pictures. So I guess she will be uploading them soon :D The trip helped me catch up with my sleep. Each night, I will sleep for more than 6 hours. Because we only need to get up at 0630 :D BEST!(:

:D : Hoho, you ate it right. So did it? And the chocs were not ex, compared to the help and advice you've given me. They were priceless(:

Julene & Yushu: TSK. What is all this?! Sharon would be heartbroken la. Haiyo. HAHA(:

♥ They all lived happily ever after at 12:29 AM.

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

mrs koh cheat my feelings D: i have been checking the LMS everyday. but no new slides D: i want to study geog lah. tskk.

♥ They all lived happily ever after at 10:35 PM.

Sunday, March 09, 2008

<3!

darling is so lousy. in the end i'm the one uploading the photo. hoho. oh this was taken during mugger club excursion. supposed to take wtih honey also, but she was camera shy that day. HAHA. that day was just funny lah. we ate and slacked and didn't mug AT ALL. we can just change the club to slacker club luh. hoho.

friday & saturday!

real glad that the misunderstanding is cleared:D i think i really get scared easily. hoho. i was looking forward to the end of the day. hoho. we sat at the table at flos and played. it's nice crapping there while swinging your legs and having no worries on your mind. hoho. oh rachel did fireman's lift on pj up the stairs! so funny lah. pj was screaming all the way man. so entertaining. hoho. oh then we sang little peter rabbit while hopping down the stairs, so fun so fun. hoho.

then sharon and i went home to put our books and bathe and take clothes. i got caught by my dad at the gate okay. cos i didnt tell him that i was going for a sleepover. hoho. in the end he let me go and gave me 5 bucks somemore. damn kuku. hoho. then went to pj's hse. the ordering pizza phone call was super funny. i forgot what we were laughing at though. hoho. then played while waiting for the pizza to arrive. the pizzas were damnnnnn good man. and quite cheap. hoho.

watched kungfu mahjong 2 on crunchy roll. corryne fell asleep lah. tsk. hahaha. i think i was the only one who enjoyed watching the movie, despite watching it 3 times before alr. hoho. oh. gaya's phone call was soooooooooo hilarious! damn funny lah. pj was making weird noises throughout the call and the ending part was so funny! gaya wanted to hang up but pj refused to let her hand up! in the end gaya said "okay i'm going to hang up now. 3,2,1, bye" HAHAHA.

slept after corryne slept. i told them i would be snoring all the way alr. and i really did. hoho! pj you should be honoured okay! i figure i would only snore when i sleep real well, so that means your room is comfortable! hoho! heh? but i snored at ccac too. hoho! i think i snore everywhere i sleep lah. hahahaha. we all woke up at 7 by the noise corryne made. hoho. then slept again when we realised that there was no breakfast D: sharon and me jumped when we hear "not having breakfast makes ppl dumb" on the radio. hohohoho. woke up at 12+ by a VIBRATION. hoho. then i tried making them WIDE AWAKE by attempting to kick sharon out of the bed so she would land on pj, giving both of them a shock, but it didn't work out. hoho.

took a super long bus ride to pasir ris. then picked corryne up then went to downtown east! ate at the bk there then went to escape. we were complaining when we found out that escape was booked by some NHG company for their family day. but some kind soul came up to us and gave us tickets! how lucky. hoho. we were so lame we even screamed while on the flipper! hohoho. we played the flipper, inverter, rainbow, pirate ship and the balster boats (i think) oh we played the boat one just to get wet! hahah. cos wet and wild was closed for upgrading D: it was actually the main reason why we went to escape. cos we intended to sit the ride, then buy the keychain! ohwells.

then sue-ann joined us. she only got to sit 2 rides luh D: went to ps to eat pastamania after that. i swear i'm not gonna eat cheese for the next two months D: hoho. then i left early to meet my parents for a movie! some NC-16 horror movie. the trailers they played were super scary luh D: the movie was good though. i had my ears and mouth covered so i won't scream. hoho! then went home and slept. without bathing. heh.

RAIHAN SHI WO DE LA MEI PENG YOU, TA HEN KE AI! HAHAHAHAHAHA. it's obvious who told me to blog this. hahahahaha. not bad eh. this time your chinese no gramatical errors. but the content abit the not correct ar. HAHAHA.

♥ They all lived happily ever after at 3:58 PM.

Thursday, March 06, 2008

I want more chipsmore! I'm addicted to it already! Today was such an up and down day. After school was :D Spent time with darling, Grace Tang, Sharon and Syazza. Folded and folded and folded until I went crazy :/ I wanted to bring home my books today. But I thought, "What's the point? My free days during March holidays are only Thursday and Sunday. Still must do homework and settle other stuffs like Speech Day and mutuals." So basically, I barely have time to study. Best.

Fatimah and I were super nervous just now, until we started tearing the tissue and the packet itself. Haha, I think it's super funny that all of us have itchy fingers and start tearing random things up.

Today I was thinking, and maybe I know the reason why my studies are going downhill. Now, the difficult part is to actually change. :/ I aim to sleep at NIGHT, and not in the MORNING each day so that I won't be so stoned each morning. I can do it! Starting from Term 2 onwards.

♥ They all lived happily ever after at 10:57 PM.

Wednesday, March 05, 2008

Yesterday was Mugger Club outing! Hoho, they cheered me up manymany! :D Went to PS to eat at Gelare. Has been a long time since I ate waffles. Went around to buy stuffs. I think we spent half of our time eating and buying stuffs at Daiso. We didn't even studyla, that's the best part. Nevermind, next time we better sit down and focus! I think the things we bought were damn random. Hoho, darling bought me a box to place my precious thingy(: Thanks!

Damn the stupid rain today. Spoiler, cheeeken! But Encik Suria came back(: Random talks and TSKK to ___. On the way home, me and Zura were complaining about 1001 things. Haha, she made me laugh.

Okay, I have to do alot of homework + other stuffs + Physics test tomorrow!

♥ They all lived happily ever after at 10:40 PM.

"HI I'M GIDDY,"
"HI I'M GOODNESS,"
"AND TOGETHER, WE ARE GIDDY GOODNESS!"

sheesh i'm blogging so i won't worry about my ban yue ji. but thats actually not good. hoho. i need to practise speaking in chinese now. got oral tmr. i think i'll pause at every word lah. tskk. my chinese really cannot make it luh:\ gosh. i really very scared i talk damn pro in chinese alr then suddenly use the word "then". i think i'll just faint on the spot luh. hoho.

eh shit. i miss that retarded elephant):
i miss the morning talks):
i miss the lame messages):
i miss making fun of her):
i miss laughing at her retardedness):
i miss whining my lungs out to her):
i miss complaining about homework and about teachers to her):
i miss asking her to help me do my homework): (heh)
i miss her maths tutions):
i miss her messy letters):
i miss receiving those random chocolates and sweets):
i miss her):

i think she'll laugh her lungs out if she sees these. sheesh lah. i have no idea why, but i suddenly miss her a lot): boo hoo):

i really don't know what to say. i really don't know what to do. i really don't know what's on your mind. am i supposed to infer that it's all over since you didn't reply the msg? can you please don't leave this hanging? i really have no idea what you want me to do, or what you want me to say. i am seriously confused. i don't know if i should smile or dao whenever i see you. i just avoid the gaze. i really can't do anything without knowing your intentions.

please, stop this guessing game. it's making me depressed.

♥ They all lived happily ever after at 8:37 PM.

Monday, March 03, 2008

I'm super tired. I just want to sleep right now. But I have one million things to do. Sheesh. This afternoon was burnt away by me trying to understand maths. Which I think I kind of understand. Got back two tests today. Best, I tell you. Chem was just the best. My grades are going downhill and I don't think I can catch up fast. Shit.

Jogging today for PE was traumatising. Tsk, from now on, I shall say BE CAREFUL! to everyone I see while jogging the swimming complex route.

To all random taggers, HELLO! (:
:D, I've updated already! Just for you eh!

♥ They all lived happily ever after at 10:10 PM.